I’ve been pretty silent on here for the past few weeks. I promised last month I was going to start writing regularly. I know I lied!
I’ve found it hard to sit down in front of the computer and type. I’ve found my creativity is lacking. My projects around the house have slowed down, I probably have about 20 half done projects in my home.
My anxiety has been high, my mood has been not so good, and well let’s be honest, life is just not what I wanted right now.
I have spent as much time with my kids as possible. We spend most of our days out back around the pool. We laugh, we listen to music, we swim in the pool and we have fun. We forget about the world and for the day it’s just us, and all is right.
Then we go back inside and the world smacks us in the face! You scroll through social media and it’s all negative and people yelling at each other! It’s so ugly and nasty and who really wants to be a part of it.
So needless to say, my thoughts and feelings just aren’t there to share.
I started this little blog to be a positive place for others. A place they could go to and feel like they aren’t alone in this journey in life. And right now I’m finding it hard to find positive, inspirational things to write about.
So here I am, being brutally honest with y’all, this is hard! Anytime you go to share your concerns or thoughts, someone jumps on your case. We are being called names, harsh words are being thrown our way, and who wants to be on social media in the midst of all this!
No one lives their lives the same way as their neighbors. Our lives take different paths. God’s plan for each one of us different. So my parenting choices I make for my kids will not necessarily work for you and your kids. And that’s ok! So while I support you and your decisions, shouldn’t you support me in my decision?!?
We lecture kids these days about being bullies, about watching what they post, say and act online. We punish them when they are caught being ugly and nasty and cyberbullying other kids. BUT that is exactly what is going on right now with adults all over social media.
Aggressive individuals are being nasty to others because they have different opinions or thoughts. Everything has turned political, when in fact it’s not. Human decency and love is lacking with everyone! People are sharing things and waiting for the up rise to happen so they can turn around and be ugly right back.
So called Christians are forgetting about the one thing we are suppose to do – love one another! And instead they are judging, hating and hurting! (Check out my post on being a Disciple in today’s world)
We’ve all forgotten who we are. And instead spending more time trying to prove our thoughts as right, looking for any and all posts and articles, whether verified, true are relevant to the times. Everyone is now a scientist and doctor, even those who never went to school! And there’s a ton more therapists now all over telling us how to react and feel.
So here’s my question, how do we move past this? How do we become a society who loves and cares about our neighbors. How do those of us make our voices loud and heard?
I tell my kids and youth, be the light in this world it will always overcome the darkness. But right now I feel as if my tiny light is being extinguished daily. (I wrote a post not too long ago about spreading your light, you can read it here.)
I don’t want to look back on this time and remember being unhappy and frustrated. I want to look back and know that I (tried) made a difference. I want my kids to see that’s how we do things. We keep our light lit and we shine brightly each and every day! I want to be able to love my neighbors, all of them! I don’t want to be afraid to voice my opinion and thoughts, and ever have to worry what others will say or how they will treat me.
I don’t have the answer to many questions at this current state. I can’t even understand my thoughts, feelings and emotions on a daily basis. Right now all I know is I love my kids, my family, and I love my neighbors. I know I live that daily and doubt there’s a person out there who can say otherwise. But more than that I just don’t know.
I’m sure I am not the only one who feels this way right now! I bet we could probably start a club (via Zoom) to support one another. And I know come a year from now we are going to look back on all this and thank God it’s part of our past. But I also want to be able to look back and be happy with the way I lived this out. I don’t want to regret how I acted or treated people.
I believe that God’s plan is amazing, something better than I could ever imagine. I am going to continue to trust in His plan, follow His rules and live each day being the best Christian I can be. (I recently wrote a post about trusting in God’s plan, you can find here.)
So if you are in the same boat, or a similar boat, we will get through this. You have my support and probably many others! Reach out, find someone you can confide in and who will support you whether your opinions and decisions are the same or not.
I don’t have all the answers, and currently feel like I have no answers, but through love and trust in God I will get through this! And so will you! So remember, love your neighbor and be kind to yourself!
